I do like the drugs...

Boo!

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 04:05:34 GMT

I'm alive, really I am! Wow I did NOT think this thing would still be up & I can't believe it's been over 8 months since my last update. Sorry for disappearing like that guys (I say this assuming you still remember who I am lol). I've been SUPER busy ever since I started my new job in March & then school in April (anyone's who's a fulltime student with a part time job should know what I mean), but I am going to make a concious effort to update this thing more than once a year.

Having said that I'm gonna sign off for now cuz my brain's fried after spending all day at school. Take care guys, I love you all!

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 21:40:14 GMT

Been on a major alcohol-E-mushroom-hash-weed binge this past week. I have never put so much poison in my body all at once before. I feel sick. Last night was the first time in a week where I got some substantial sleep. I'm such a fucking idiot. I don't know what posessed me. I know better than that. But you know what? I don't completely regret it! Is that bad? I mean, sure it was horrible when I was comming down form the drugs & I feel like shit now, but it was an experience. I know never to do that again now. And Nick was right there with me.

In other news I start my new job on Monday working for a cell phone company. I'll be sweet! Probably have to go down to part time in April cuz that's when I go back to school. Life is good :)

Blah

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 03:07:21 GMT

I got fired today, about 10 minutes ago. I wasn't expecting it but at the same time I sorta saw it coming too. Does that make any sence? I feel crappy right now. I tired my best. It was toally not my field. I thought I was doing ok but I guess not. I'm not too upset though. Honestly I'm not sure how I feel right now. I know I feel down, but I'm feeling something else which I can't quite put my finger on. I have faith though. I know this happened for a reason. Kinda sux though cuz money's kinda been tight lately but hey, it's not the end of the world. Money's not everything right? Actually, I don't really feel all that shitty at all

Face your Androgynygony!

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 08:34:44 GMT

I finally came up with a new year's resolution, a few weeks late I know, but better late then never.

So I've decided to stop bitching & complaining about the way I look or what impression people get of my age when they first see me and just embrace my androgynous, youthful appearence! And why the hell not? People spend thousands of dollars having poison injected into their faces to look a few years younger, so I'm gonna start enjoying looking young for as long as I can. And being androgynous isn't that bad. Never really bothered me much when I was a teenager, why should it get to me now? I know I'm not a troll. I'm rather happy with the way I look actually, so's my hubby. Don't care what anybody else thinks.

And so ends our therapy session. Thank you for listening.

Superhero!

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 19:28:52 GMT

Got this of Nessy-poo's lj

The Anti-Hero
You scored 2 idealist points, 7 detective points, 2 kick-in-the-door points, and 1 help points!

You are the anti-hero, the near reverse of the ideal superhero. You walk a dangerous line between good and evil, more so than any other type of "hero," and in fact you can barely be called a hero at all. You get the bad guys using bad guy rules. Many other superheroes see you as a criminal, and may try to take you down. But that doesn't stop you from taking the law into your own hands. Examples: Punisher, Wolverine, Deadpool, Spawn.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 13% on idealist

You scored higher than 36% on detective

You scored higher than 36% on kickinthedoor

You scored higher than 25% on helppoints

Link: The Superhero Archetype Test written by rhombusoval on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Cool eh? ;)

Happy New Year to all!

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 08:02:10 GMT

It came, it did it's thing, it fucked off. That's 2005 for ya! :p

Year's been good. Had it's ups & downs, but it was generally a good year.

Personal high points include an awsome love-life (being married kicks ass!), a sweet job, plentiful weed, fliping off the Backstreet Boys, good friends, and my first tattoo! Low points include not being able to wirte & paint as much as I'd have liked to, discovering that Herbal Extacy sucks after ordering a whole bottle, and worst of all... the end of Queer as Folk!!! *cries at the painful memory* But hey, the good overshadow the bad, and may 2006 RULE!!!

Oh yeah, and I turned 26 yesterday. Sux that I still look 15 but meh! Nicky gt me an awsome present & a fun time was had by all :)

'Tis the season, blah blah blah....

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 02:51:23 GMT

Heya folks, Merry belated Christmas to anybody reading this. Sorry I've been gone for a while yet again. My folks were in town this past month and just left yesterday, which meant I was spending most of my time with them & therefore didn't have much time to update & upload (or watch porn!) as regularly as I'd liked to have :(

I now have a cold. I'm stuffed up & sleepy from cold meds. See you in a few days when I hopefully have something more interesting to write about.

Meaningless babbling

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 20:37:34 GMT

You know what's wierd? I smoked half a bowl last night & I still feel a bit stonned! That's some goooooooood weed, it is! I should probably eat something though, need to be at work in less than 2 hours...

PS> I've been meaning to post Twilight of the Gods here for ages, but the last time I tried to upload something through megaupload or yousendit it completely damaged the file! Know any place else I can upload?

PPS> I watched this porno called Boyband recently & almost died laughing! Yep, it's that bad... I almost feel sorry for the actors in the film, but I gotta tell you, that BelAmi spoils you rotten!

Rage

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 07:19:37 GMT

You know your obsession with Queer as Folk has mutated from "biggest fan" status to "sad and insane" when...

You hunt down the very first issue of Rage (yes people, it really exists!) & save it in your Best Reads folder.

Tra la la la la! This and that.

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 01:10:51 GMT

I like older men. I like older men a LOT. I disovered this about 2 and a half weeks ago when I noticed my pants getting uncomfortably tight while watching an episode of Criss Angel's Mindfreak, then again during a Keith Urban video, and then a couple of more times during movies/videos/interviews involving the likes of Mark Dacascos, Will Smith, David Usher, to name but a few. Nick had better hurry up and turn 40!

In other news, we might be doing another show for military guy. What y'all think? Shall we?

She made me do it!

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 20:28:04 GMT

Got this off Nessa's lj:

"If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you with a spatula, either way.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you."

Ok then, start with the comments.... NOW!

Absence

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 18:42:50 GMT

Hey guys, how y'all been doing? Sorry for not being around as much as I'd like to be. Things aren't going too good at our end over here. Nicky's been pretty stresed out lately because of his work. He was in tears last night, pretty sure he'd be fired today or by the end of the week by the latest. This morning he got a phone call about an hour before he normally leaves. Don't know what it was about but it couldn't have been good. I'll be doing the supportive-be-by-his-side partner thing for the next while till he's better. And if he does loose his job chances are we'll be moving, so I probably won't be around much during that either.

On a brighter note, we went out halloween Saturday & had a BLAST! :)

Tony Montana, the castrating kitty!

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 00:07:48 GMT

With a subject like that you gotta wonder what the fuck's going on right? Well, it all started about a week ago when my former boss asked if we could babysit his 7 week old kitten, Tony Montana, for a few days while he & his girlfriend visited her family in Calgary. We said sure & took the little guy in. He's sooooooooooooooooo adorable! Anyway, the next day we invite a bunch of people over for a little get-together & one of Nicky's pals had a little too much to drink & therefore had to spend the night in our spare bedroom. Half way through the night we hear him SCREAM! Turns out that little Tony Montana found his way into the spare bedroom &, dum dum duuuuuuuuuuuuuum, bit this dude's cock while he slept! Lolololololololololololololol! Needless to say, we now have a grown man in his mid 20's who's shit-scared of 7 week old kittens, & a former boss who's decided it's best to sleep with a cup on!

Just thought I'd share that with y'all :D

To cut or not to cut

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 06:28:55 GMT

*Clears cob-webs from lj* Been a while hasn't it? Sorry 'bout that! :p

Anyhoo, I was having a chat with nessa_t
a few days ago, & we got to talking about male circumcision (it actually started off as a conversation about gay porn, but meh). She sugested someone make a poll on it, and so I did. I'd reeeeeeeeeeeeeally appreciate anyone reading this to take the it, & if possible, pimp it too! *makes big puppy-dog eyes* Here it is: Male Circumcision: Yay or Nay?

Stuff you might like! :)

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 23:23:12 GMT

Dum dum duuuuuuuuuuuuum!!!

Here it is folks, the end, the finale, the very last of the lastest QAF episode EVER! *Mourns* Apparently some people found it unsatisfactory, so much so that they even started an online petition! I on the other hand thought it was the PERFECT ending. It sorta caught me off guard, made me wanna cry, but all in all it wrapped up the whole story line soooooo beautifully. So here it is, without further ado, QAF 513

Also, while I was uploading stuff I decided to upload some more of my fave music for you guys. Here's some songs that I initally wasn't too crazy about, but thanks to Nicky & his catchy 80's crap, I too am now hooked to this stuff!

Cutting Crew - I just died in your Arms"
David Usher - Fast Car
Falco - Rock me Amadeus
Martika - Toy Soldiers
New Order - True Faith

And here's some of my own faves...

Billy Talent - The River Below
Crystal Method - Caterpillar
David usher - Trickster
Delerium - After All
Delerium feat Sarah Mclachlan - Silence
Fear Factory - Invisible Wounds
Fear Factory - Didimortal
Garbage - You Look So Fine
I Feel You I've actually zipped 2 different versions of this song together. First one's the original by Depeche Mode, second's a cover by Placebo. (I think the first one's better though, just cuz Brian Molko's voice is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too high & nazal for this song!)
Megadeath - Moto Psycho
Placebo - Daddy Cool
Placebo - Pure Morning
Rammstein & Depeche Mode - Stripped

And some videos too! :D

Slipknot - Wait & Bleed
Marilyn Manson - (S)Aint
Duran Duran - Come Undone - Great song AND video for when you're stonned! ;)

Music Stuff

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 09:26:38 GMT

Anybody ever hear the song "My Sweet Prince" by Placebo? I'm asking 'cuz I downloaded it a few days ago & we haven't been able to decide out what it's about. I personally think it's a junkie singing about the love-hate relationship he has with drugs. Nicky thinks it's a boy-on-boy love song, my pal Kris thinks it's a guy comparing his adiction to his lover's affections to a drug addiction, Brent thinks it's a father-son song (I happent to think he's an idiot. Nice guy, but dumb as hell) Jay thinks it's about unrequited love, & Mike thinks it's about "a junkie fag trying to choose between his boyfriend & heroine".

As you can see, we haven't been able to decide. Here's the song file for anyone who hasn't heard it: "My Sweet Prince" - Placebo Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease listen to it & tell me what you guys think! It's fucking killing me! Song's kinda slow & laid back just so you all know, one of my current faves :)

Since I was already uploading music, I decided to put up 2 of my favorite film scores while I was at it. First one's from Queen of the Damned, Lestat's violen solo - Gypsy Violin And the Summer Overture from Requiem for a Dream. There's actually 2 versions I've zipped together for anyone interested. There's the regular (short) score version, & the orchestral version (longer). Enjoy! Summer Overture

*Yawns* Now it's beddy-bye time

Alexander

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 06:11:56 GMT

Just finished watching Alexander on Pay-per-view and I just wanted to say that it's NOT as bad as everybody says it is. Honest! I rather enjoyed it actually. Mind you, that could just be 'cuz I'm not the biggest history buff in the world & any major boo-boos would have gone un-noticed, or just the fact that everybody kept going on & on about what a load of shit it was so my expectations weren't terribly high. Or maybe it was because Jared Leto looked SO FUCKING HOT that I wanted to hump my TV. Whatever the case I'm glad I watched it.

Having said that, there were a few things about the flick that kinda sucked ass.

#1 The battle scenes. Way too long & repetative. A bit more dialogue & emotion would have added way more to the mood they were trying to set. And what's with the mushroom trip in the final battle???

#2 Persian pretty-boy with dialogue defiency. Would have been nice if the guy had a line or 2. Heck it would have been nice if he'd have had a WORD or 2!

#3 Alexander's constant yapping as Hephaistion drew his final breath... This scene should have been a total tear jerker, and in all fairness it kinda was, but all I was thinking was "Dude, the love of you life is DIEING. Shut the fuck up & go be by his side already!"

#4 The chemistry between Collin & Jared. Not all bad mind you, just in some parts you're thinking "I am SO not buying this..." For example, the scene where Alexander & Hephaistion promise to love each other forever and ever and ever. They're all "I love you & no other!" "I don't want to loose you!" "I'll always be with you!" blah blah blah... Now, as romantic & passionate the dialogue is, their body language & the look in their eyes says "Ew! I do NOT wanna make out with you!"

Ok so it was more Collin than Jared to be fair. Actually Jared was pretty convincing in a lot of the scenes. Especially when Hephaistion, all heartbroken & teary-eyed, gives Alexander the promise ring on his wedding night. I was all "Awwww..."

But anyway, Collin, buddy, you need to go hang out with the straight QAF ex-cast members cuz they'll show you how to convincingly pretend to be in love with guy. And while you're at it, stay as FAR away from blonde hair dye as you POSSIBLY can! It's BAD for ya! You're hot with the dark hair, but whatever you do STEAR CLEAR OF THE BLEACH!!!

The Birds & the Bees

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 05:49:07 GMT

Ever have an orgasm that seems to last for hours even after it's over? There's a word for that I think, Tantra or something.

See, Nicky'd been chatting with one of his co-workers about sex today, & she mentioned something about a technique she often used with her ex-bf that made him "very happy". Nick decided to try it on me when he got home, & I'd like to recommend it to anybody reading this...

Started off like normal sex, only instead of beginning slowly & then increasing our pace, we tried to maintain the rhythm we started off with. It actually lets you change positions soooooo many times & do a TON of different things to each other, it's fantastic! Keep in mind though it's not easy to keep it slow after a while (every time I tried to go faster & get myself off, Nicky took total control & made sure I didn't!) We were at it for about 2 hours before we came. The actual orgasm felt like it lasted at least 15 minutes.

That was almost 2 hours ago and my body still feels like I'm cumming! It is just the most amazing feeling in the world! Feels like I'm on E and then some. even though I'm not (honest, I'm not!)

One more to go!

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 04:44:06 GMT

Oooooh can ya feel it? Can you feel the build up to the very last QAF episode? Alas the end is approaching... and here's the very last stepping stone on one's way to the bittersweet climax (sorry, been writing LOTR slash again :p) Soooooo, here it is, QAF 512

Happy Anniversary to us!

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 01:46:52 GMT

Yeay! Anniversary time!!! Got plans, can't chat for long, here's QAF 511

The anniversary is upon us!

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 07:02:28 GMT

Wow, I can't believe my anniversary's in less than a week now. Hard to believe it's been another year already! And it's such a wonderful feeling cuz it's like I'm falling in love all over again. It is just the best thing in the world... Gah! I'm blushing right now as I type this!!!

Don't know if I'll get a chance to post in the next couple of days or not, so here's QAF 510

Happy happy Jeff! Happiest of the happies!

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 01:50:01 GMT

I am just getting off THE best of the bestest mushroom trip I've ever ever EVER had! And I am in just such an awsomely good mood that's just the bestest of the best ever! I just called up everybody in my phone book & left messages on their answering machines telling them how much I love them & just how unbelievably happy I am right now & wish tht I could share it with them. And yo know what? I'll probably regeret it in a few hours but I don't care! I'm just so fucking euphoric right now that I just had to share this moment with everybody I know. So here's an entry for anybody reading it: this is me, Jeff McKay, as I am, telling you all how much I love every single one of you right now & I always will! Drugs rule! Everyhing in this whole world RULES! And don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Wow I am so high right now & it's the best feeling in the whole world! I love everybody, especially my mom.

A quicky (ie, QAF update)

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 05:01:57 GMT

Man I can't believe our anniversary's in less than 2 weeks!!!

Anyway, here's QAF 509

PS> I was in a shitty mood a few hours ago, what cheered me up was an episode of For The Boys. LOVE that show. Anybody else here watch it? I'd so recomend it!

Some interesting QAF stuff + an episode. Some interesting stuff that has nothing to do with QAF too.

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 07:42:49 GMT

I saw my double yesterday! It was so awsome!!! See, me & Nicky went out for dinner last night, & at the resturant a group of people came & sat at the table next to ours & one of them looked just like me! It was CRAZY! The only difference was that his hair was shorter than mine, his eyes were green (mine are blue), and his skin might have been a shade or two lighter. Other than that he was a total carbon copy of me. We didn't talk or anything, but we did exchange knowing looks & his friends kept looking over in disbelief. The experience was interesting to say the least...

On a completely unrelated topic, I was looking at a bunch of QAF cast/character pictures today and came across this one of Gale & Randy. It cracked me up. Now as much as I love QAF, this has got to be the SLEAZIEST thing I've ever seen! Looks like a poster from a low budget 90's gay porno film!!! It's a hot picture now, don't get me wrong, but I can practically HEAR bad porn music every time I look at it. And the cherry on top is is the fact that I don't even think they're supposed to be in charcter! That's cuz: a) They look like they're in a mechanic's shop or something, a place the show's NEVER visited. b) Brian's never had any sort of facial hair.

Heheheheheheheheheheheheheheheh!

Also, I think I'm loosing my noodle. I watched an episode of South Park right after a few doses of QAF and I can actually see a physical resemblance between Justin & Phillip! What do you guys think? Am I going nuts or is there really something there? Let me know either way, I'd really love to see what you guys recon. Here's a picture of Phillip for those of you who haven't seen him:

Anyway, here's QAF 508

Quicky!

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 02:25:17 GMT

Heya folks. Busy day, can't stay for long, just wanted to post this QAF 507 Enjoy my pretties, the next post shall be longer, I promise :)